Knee Deep in Embarrassment
Wednesday, January 20, 2010 at 6:00AM 
If you asked my beloved husband, he would tell you that I'm capable of walking by 'disarray' repeatedly, or living with it comfortably before I feel compelled to take action. On the scale of neatness/sloth, I probably fall somewhere around the middle. Sliding any further down the scale gets pretty uncomfortable.
And that's where I find myself. As I pulled my recovering body up to my desk yesterday, I was confronted with 769 unread emails dating back to K3's accident. Yes, I noticed the number climbing, but I didn't look too closely or notice how big it had gotten.
Rather than say all those emails are the issue, I'm going to call them an indicator... a sign that I've possibly let myself be overwhelmed... by circumstance, by obligation, by responsibility. While I feel comfortable that I kept all the balls in the air, I'm kind of embarrassed about being confronted with the evidence of said "over-whelm-ed-ness."
Which left me staring at my monitor last night muttering "so what are you going to do about it, babushka?"
I don't have much of a plan. I know I want to make a list and start checking things off. I know I've begun unsubscribing from some of my email notifications and online shopping stores. If i can go 2 months without having to read each email then I think I can live without all that "reading material!" Again, not that all the filler was the issue, but sheer volume kept me from seeing some of the personal emails that came in that I didn't respond to. *blush*
I know I'm going to get K3 through her rebuild and other needs...
I'm definitely going to get my oil changed...
And I'm going to be more careful of my time...
And I think I want to try yoga too.
What do you do when you're knee deep?
AG out!
on the mend, overload in Modern life 
Reader Comments (11)
When I am knee deep I tend to put everything into one enormous pile and then concentrate on the thing at the top of the pile. I take care of that and go to the next thing. Eventually, the pile gets managable!
Hit delete. If it's really important, we'll write you again;) Fell better! PS--I want to get back to yoga, too. Wonderful!
I sit in the middle of the room and cry first. That always seems to help. Then I just start tackling it a piece at a time. The crying is the key, though. Pinky swear.
I make lists, lots and lots of lists. I hope you are feeling 100% soon!
I find that curling up into the fetal position and sucking my thumb helps. Yoga is a close second;)
Get yourself well and THEN worry about the other stuff!
I know those boats ... as an Aquarian I tend toward organized chaos ... and yoga hurts my knees... I do wonder tho if the teddy bear I sent K3 ever arrived
I find that blaming my significant other helps enormously. ;)
I make lists when I get overwhelmed. Just writing it all down and getting to cross some of the things off is so rewarding.
And for the e-mails, that's way too much. I was overwhelmed with e-mails when I got sick and ended up deleting most of them (and reading comments directly on my blog); it was that overwhelming to me.
The yoga sounds really good.
I've oddly found myself in the same boat recently, while trying to sort through 24 years of accumulating crap we could easily live without. I finally just decided to remove half of everything in my house so we can get it on the market this year. Mind you, that was just the decision. Doing it will be an entirely different story I think. It seems like no matter how much progress I make, I get up the next day and it doesn't seem like any less.
I think I'll just go play a game online. You know. One that will improve my ever fading memory so I can organize better. Yeah. Right...
;-)
More curious to me is that you call yourself "babushka". That made me laugh out loud. If I were you, hit the "Delete ALL" button and start over. At this point it's like reading old newspapers...useless.
get well and then make a list.
then loose the list.
feel better soon.
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