Of Two Minds


Each year at this time, I'm torn between dread of the coming holidays with all that must be accomplished (in my mind) and excitement that the holidays are upon us and how many tasks there are to be done. The shopping and the wrapping and the decorating and the agonizing over the tree... The baking and the family events... The holiday potlucks and secret Santa's at work... the efforts to keep the house clean and secrets that must be kept... more baking...! My little head is swirling with everything that MUST happen in the next 30 days. There's an equal pull in either direction leaving me in the middle thinking over and over again "I'm not ready for this, I'm not ready for this."

That thought is usually followed by a line from one of my favorite movies,  [because when I'm overcome with self-induced stress, I tend to think in movie lines!] Princess Bride. When Miracle Max and his wife, Valerie, are waving off Westley, Inigo and Fezzik, (Have fun storming the castle, boys!)and Valerie turns to Max and asks "Do you think it will work?" and he very negatively responds "It'll take a miracle!".

That's my job during the holidays... purveyor of miracles! I've taught the people around me that the 'perfect holiday season' is possible... in small ways. I've taught myself that I can do it... create the holiday that makes everyone happy... the multitude of holiday cookies (enough to share with everyone), the goofy holiday movie nights, finding the perfect tree... coordinating the holiday meals and schedules. I'm even trying to reform and put the 'fun' back in decorating the house and baking cookies.

I realize I'm taking the long way around this... so here's the what I'm trying so hard to say... I've never entered a holiday season where I felt ready. I always feel like time is pushing me through the process (time to shop, time to bake, time to put up the tree). And although I look forward to the holidays and I know I'll enjoy them, like a general preparing for the coming battle, I'm kind of looking forward to it being over even more.

This year, I'm really going to focus on being less stressed about things. I'm not going to fuss over the wrapping paper, I'm not going to worry about the tree (as much) and I'm going to keep reminding myself to enjoy. Not just because it will help me sleep nights, but also because of my asthma. I don't know if stress played a role in how bad my asthma was over last year's holiday season, but I definitely don't want to go down that path again.

Now... hopefully I'm not the only person that is trying not to make themselves crazy in the next 30 days. What are you all doing to reduce stress?

Asthmagirl wants to know!

PS ~ I'll try to get my sweet potato recipe up on the cooking blog today!